Sunday, August 28, 2011

Listen

Why must silence be so unfair?
Every step so unforeseen,
Never a moment,
Nor a breath given.

I feel this as you do,
Breathe in as you do,
And dream as we have.
Better it will be.
For tomorrow
And the day after,
Will resound something anew.

Take these off
And drop all guards,
We require not!

I want you to come back again,
To walk me down the shore
That night where we began.
No more downpours
Only love's rain.
Listen to what calls us.
It sings again.
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Sunday, August 14, 2011

Such a creep...

"...But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so f-ing special
I wish I was special

....Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special... "

(Radiohead's Creep)

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I don't think I've been this disconnected with reality as I am right now. I promised myself I'd be better than this. I promised myself that I'd get around this. I promised, that I wouldn't be fodder for pain that came unrequited.

But then, Life decides to pour down on you, and by the time you run for cover, you find yourself submerged neck deep. What do you do then? 
...What I need right now is, a float, not an umbrella.. 

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I tweeted this earlier - "Disorientation is when you feel your heart, ache in 92 different places, while your brain takes off on 92 different tangents."

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I cry buckets. I am told that I cry "for the silliest things". I would like to disagree...But..anyway, I've never cried like this in the longest while. Why must it be so difficult? There are a hundred different things meandering in and around every convulation of my brain. There are voices buzzing inside of, and outside my head..There cannot be a more vivid description of chaos than this.

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Why?

Karma??

Damn!

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I could use a cloud of adjectives to describe my current state of mind. (This is when a sound vocabulary comes in handy! :p) But it would still not be enough. Plus, would it help erase all that has been said and done?...No!

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I am a sloppy piece of work!..Is my optimism sheathing the fact that I might be bordering on a delusional disorder?? Is there really, any hope at all??

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I need a new box of tissues and a hug.


Friday, August 12, 2011

My Coral Corset

Air tight and suffocate.
This is my coral corset.
I dressed in time for you to see,
How delicate a waist could be.

But your eyes traveled much too far,
Enough to excite dormant scars.

Running down the marble stairs,
I escaped into your tainted lair,
Where darkness grips and writhes in fear,
And the soul stirs and disappears.

The knell gets louder by every passing hour.
As I feverishly write in this desolate tower:
For them to know how vain it has been.
A masquerade I did parade.
For you to know how much you mean.
In riddles did I always speak,
I apologize for everything I've been.

On which side of eternity is my place reserved?
My heart questions; My mind unperturbed.
An eerie calm in the chaos,
Like charity sans any pathos.

A forewarning of what is to be.
On a flute accompanied by a tambourine,
The melancholy in the melody,
Rises above the clouds and beyond the trees.
What is to happen is closer than it seems.

I see unicorns on a carousel.
And I pray for another time.
Only to realize,
The wheels that turned,
Were in hands that weren't mine.

A thought. A whisper.
This has been the coldest winter.
I have always loved Orchids in purple.
Bring them to me. Be sure to remember.

The clock finally struck two.
My waist now bent,
And the knife stuck through,
My bloody coral corset.